Dos Pacitas
Is this stress?
Lately, I wake up feeling as if my heart has wings.
Good thing I was saved today from that uncomfortable sensation by the absolutely adorable Pamangkins Galore, Inc. The earthquake I surmised that's happening, was actually the kiddos jumping on my bed and imploring me to play with them at the pool. I managed to convince myself that I still have a chance of a lazy holiday amidst the cacophony of “Am-ams”, “Tita palaro ng cellphones nyo!”, and “Tita pahingi ng Yakult!” I say yes to all requests. With half-closed eyes, I chucked out the following items from the cabinets: a handful of chocolates, a pack of jackfruit chips, a bag of sugar flowers, leftover cream of mushroom soup and well, practically anything edible I could find to feed the sugar and calorie-hungry kiddos.
Thought everything was going great having finished laps with Mariah & Kean, played submarine with Kaela, and caught Nae Nae several times as she courageously dives belly first into the water. I closed my eyes while doing the backfloat and whispered the mantra “Don’t think about it. No deadlines. No responsibilities.”
I was resting in a corner when Papa arrived. He’d just accompanied Mom and Nanay for Nay’s check-up. I stared into the water and started making a list of things to do in my head. I snapped out of reverie when Lisa called out, observing my sudden silence. I looked up and played submarine again with Kaela.
Is it okay to say I’m worried for my namesake?
Is it okay to say to the world - friends, officemates, acquaintances, “I’m sorry, I’ve to conserve my energy for my circle and attend to them muna?”
Come tomorrow, I’ll have to lock the smile on my face again because someone's always bound to make this stupid comment: “Buti pa si Marisse, walang pinoproblema!”
A confidant just asked me this evening, “Hanggang kelan mo bubuhatin ang pamilya mo?”
Hangga’t kaya.
Love for family is always a virtue. But never neglect your love for yourself, because you deserve that. Smile, reese... You're adorable. Hug!
Posted by: Faith | June 25, 2007 06:24 PM